Thanks to all of you that have responded with ideas for getting breast milk. To clarify, I am looking for the first 4 days of milk from the day the baby is born, trying to capture that colostrum. Someone that gives birth and isn’t planning to breast feed but would be willing to pump for 4 days would be the ideal person! I realize that scenario isn’t easy to come by.

It’s Masters day in our household today. (as in golf) Charles’ birthday which is tomorrow usually falls around the Masters which for him is real treat. However, I am inside typing this while the TV is on and Charles is outside in our front yard digging a hole for our new Mexican Sycamore Tree. Golf on TV reminds me of being little and my dad having it on and feeling like a nap would be ideal with the golf commentary lulling me to sleep. I will admit I do enjoy watching golf and watching 19 year old Jordan Speith today is exciting.

I have been off chemo for almost 2 weeks with another week to go before I start round 7. I would think I should be feeling pretty good with this longer break but I am tired and feel a bit run down. I decided to get a blood draw yesterday so I can see where my neutrophils are, but the results which should go on my portal are of course not there, so hopefully on Monday I will know.

Charlotte is at her friend’s house across the street playing with their new hamster and dreaming of one of her own according to my friend Bridget, the mom of the friends across the street. Sadly this will not be happening in the Saltzman household. She really wants a pet of her own and captured a small tree cricket (named Elsa) when we were camping last weekend and put it in her bug trapper. She dutifully gave it water and some flowers to eat and then took it out to “play” – and wouldn’t you know 40 seconds later Elsa hoped off her hand never to be seen again. I was all in favor of Elsa as she was a very tidy and easy pet but her tenure here was a mere 3 days.

I am actually in favor of a puppy or a dog that is older but Phin is very much against this idea. He is adamant that a dog would ruin our cat Benjie’s life and he doesn’t want Benjie to be scared in his own home. He has a good point but I think Benjie would adjust. I realize a Hamster would be far easier to care for…

Alright – time to go get the birthday boy’s cake, and it will not be a tofu cake or one made of greens, because really, who wants to eat that?!

I hope spring has sprung wherever you are and you are out enjoying it!

xoxo Hilary

Yoga on Thursday with Upma

It’s chemo cheer time again! Clayton thanks so much for leading “Pay It Forward” even though Hilary had to skip the last treatment.

On April 18th Hilary will start her 7th round of chemo and the theme is “Joy.” Lucy Butter is leading and would love for the group to, between now and Thursday am, April 17th, send her their examples of ways they are deliberately choosing joy each day. It could be by setting your intention do so because…… (you are grateful or thankful for something, relieved about something, etc). It could be as a result of something that happens to you during the day—-the gorgeous spring weather, a long walk with a friend, etc. You can send several or only one. And all this done in honor of Hilary, but with the hope that we are all more able to “choose joy” everyday!

“We cannot construct joy. We can only receive it. But joy is not something that “happens to us”. We must choose it every day. We choose it every time we let ourselves be loved; when we forgive and are forgiven; when we hope instead of dread: when we give thanks instead of demanding to know “why”; when we have faith in the One who sees us, who knows us, and who loves us. Why should we consent to mere fleeting, capricious ‘happiness’, when joy only awaits our intentional, loving “yes” to make a home in us? Let’s choose joy!” Sally Robbins

As always, please feel free to pass this along and thank you for participating! It really makes such a huge difference in Hilary’s journey.

One more thing I forgot to put out there to the Universe. I mentioned I am working with a man in Marin County, CA and he’s given us some recommendations. He included this one and admitted it was unconventional for sure but included the data that supports it. That being said, I am looking for anyone in the Austin area that would be willing to part with some of their breast milk. Yes, you did read that correctly. More specifically, I need breast milk from the first four days of when lactation begins. So, if you know an over producer who would be willing to pump or someone that wasn’t going to nurse but would be willing to pump for 4 days, please put them in touch with me so we can chat. Then I’ll invite you all over for almond/breast milk smoothies – actually I won’t because we all know breast milk is liquid gold and I will be unable to share my stash! Seriously, this is not chemo brain talking. Here is the support for it from my advocate, if I get some I promise I will poll all of you for breast milk recipes:

This is somewhat exotic but should you have a friend or acquaintance in your
community who is open and willing, then consider fresh human milk ( (first 4 days of lactation) – as much as is available (Hamlet Project) Natural substance inbreast milk destroys cancer cells: Breast milk is documented to be
the best food possible for infants and breastfeeding is known to
have enormous health benefits for moms, too. Swedish
researchers have found that it contains a compound that kills
cancer cells in humans. The substance, dubbed HAMLET (which
stands for Human Alpha-lactalbumin Made LEthal to Tumor cells),
is comprised of a protein and a fatty acid. HAMLET was first
discovered by chance several years ago by researchers who were
investigating the antibacterial properties of breast milk. Scientists
soon began testing it on cancer cells, studies in the lab showed
that HAMLET was able to kill 40 different types of cancer cells.
Using a fluorescent red tracking substance to show the exact
location of HAMLET, the researchers clearly demonstrated that
the compound binds to the membranes of tumor cells, killing
them.

over and out xoxo Hilary

Hi Everyone,

It has been a long time since I have written, my apologies for that. Life has been busy! Where to jump in…I guess I’ll start with my most recent goings on and work backwards. This past Friday was supposed to be the second infusion of round 6. Welp – apparently I am not Wonder Woman after all – for even I am now experiencing a common chemo side-effect, low neutrophils. What you ask? Simply said, the neutrophils are your first responder white blood cells. Chemo of course kills the good along with the bad and the stem cells in your bone marrow can’t keep up with the hammering it gets from the chemo and viola – you get a low neutrophil count. In order to get my chemo, that count needs to be 1,000 or higher. On Friday my count was 600. My body is too susceptible to infection with that low a count therefore no drugs for me. We are skipping this part of round 6 and taking a breather to let those little neutrophils get all revved up for the start of round 7 (ding, ding) on April 18. This seems to be a new pattern as this happened during round 5 between infusion 1 and infusion 2 but my count was 900 and we didn’t know that until after I had gotten the drugs so I sort of slipped through the system that time. Now we will most likely need to come up with a plan for how to manage this new twist and I’ll be sure to keep you posted when said plan is created!

There is so very much I feel l want to fill you in on. I have had so many visitors that I am not sure I can do them all justice now that time has passed. These friends and family members have taken time off work, hired child-care, spent hard earned money, used vacation time, rearranged schedules, left loved ones and I not only appreciate and love them for it but it feeds my soul. How about some pictures?

Childhood friends Susannah Ewing and Leigh LaMent from Springside school and Chestnut Hill came to see me together traveling from Mill Valley, CA and Philadelphia, PA.

This was followed by a visit from childhood friend Laura Foulke whom I have known since we moved onto Summit street in Chestnut Hill in the middle of my first grade year. Laura’s house was directly across the street from mine and we have been life long friends overlapping in San Francisco,CA where Laura still resides before we moved here to Austin.

Next came friends Sarah Hunter and Heather Shoultz – we met in Seattle when I lived there almost 15 years ago and they both still live there. This photo also has friend and next door neighbor Julie Wilson (who is a frequent visitor!) and my sister Becca.

Next came my cousins Cynthia and Jennifer DiFrancesco – Cynthia lives in Utah and Jennifer in Oregon. This is Jennifer, Becca and Cynthia

Cynthia pre-bike and our entire bike crew – minus me behind the camera!

Jennifer and Charles

Our most recent visitors were my in-laws, Charles and Cornelia Saltzman who drove here from Pennsylvania!

Thank you ALL for all for making the effort, for caring, for showing up and for loving us so sweetly. It is a treat each and every time someone I love comes to Austin to visit.

To switch gears a bit, some people have asked me if I am still selling Beautycounter (for those that have no idea what I’m talking about, Beautycounter is this fabulous company with a mission to get safer beauty products into the hands of everyone.) YES! I am still selling Beautycounter. Visit my website if you want to order something www.hilary.beautycounter.com or email me or call me and I will gladly help you.

My sister tells me people are asking how I am doing. (hint, hint Hills, update your blog) I am doing well, really! I have tolerated chemo really well so far. I am walking daily, doing yoga too and eating cleanly. I have gained 10 pounds back of the 20 I lost, which goes a long way to making a girl feel a whole lot better. I have an appetite now (yippie) and I have many many normal days now where I am not thinking about cancer. Charles has decided to eat in solidarity with me and bless him he is finding out it is a challenge. I make some concessions for him, like he still gets to have coffee and half and half and he had a hot dog when we went camping this past weekend. I cheated a bit too if the truth be told – no hot dogs but I will admit to having one of CJ’s amazing gluten free macaroons and a few Poppers which are essentially potato chips. Charles is doing very well and I love him for wanting to help me in this way. I still have my hair although it is thinning now. I hope it won’t totally all fall out but alas, I have no control of that so I’ll keep you posted. I go back to MD Anderson to see how awesomely I am doing on May 7.

Becca has transitioned chemo cheer to the care calender (scroll down the main blog page for details on this). I just wanted to thank Meredith Lamme for doing such a great job heading this up and making it happen, thank you Becca for finding chemo cheer a new home and Clia for the idea in the first place. THANK YOU LADIES! I can’t tell you how amazing chemo cheer is. I don’t know the theme until I am sitting in the chair and it’s like Christmas each time. I have laughed, and cried, I have been touched to the core of my soul with all the love, honesty and true humanitarianism of all of you out there that care about me and my family. The funny thing about chemo days is that they are fun, really! I’m not kidding. I get to sit and really visit with the people that come with me. I get to read, look and hold cheer items. I get to hear from people from all different parts of my life. It is truly amazing. I want all of you reading this to know how hard I am working to heal and how much you are all a part of what keeps me focused, motivated and energized. I don’t know what I have done to deserve all the blessings that have come my way in the last 5 months but I see them and I am taking them in and I am so very thankful. Here are the cheer themes that have been done so far:

HUGS, ANGELS, HUMOR, LOVE, INSPIRATION, PATIENCE, SELFIES, PAY IT FORWARD

Pay it forward was cheerleader Clayton Maebius’ cheer for this past Friday. Clayton and I walked to treatment together (I walk to and from treatment which is such a great thing to be able to do!) and Clayton was with me when the PA Kathrine told me I couldn’t get treatment that day. I hear Clayton go Nooooo! Clayton had patiently waited her turn to come sit with me and now it wasn’t going to happen. We took the long way home and decided to go ahead with the cheer anyway. We sat on my back patio and I read each piece sent in by friends about things they had done to pay it forward in my honor or times they have payed it forward in the past. I loved each and every story, and it was such a good reminder about the joy simple kindness brings to the giver and the receiver. It’s so easy to pay it forward in little and big ways and it’s so fun to bring light into someone’s life that isn’t expecting it.

Speaking of paying it forward I want to thank my dear friend Dana Valentine for the foresight and execution of getting the gofundme site up and running. This was entirely Dana’s doing and wow, it was such a surprise to us. Charles and I would sit on the couch in our living room and look at the donations, read the messages and cry. Many of you know that Charles had been unemployed for over a year and was two months into a new job when I got diagnosed. We hadn’t even gotten back on our feet when the floor dropped. This fund has allowed us to focus on healing in a way that simply wouldn’t be possible had Dana not initiated this and all of you not contributed. How is this money being used?

Medical bills that aren’t paid by insurance

co-payments for treatment and medication

lodging at MD Anderson

we hired an advocate out of San Francisco to delve more deeply into my case and help us with various resources – he charges us by the hour for phone sessions

we also pay by the hour another type of out of the box thinker in Marin County – SF Bay area who is treating me with Chinese Medicine and working in conjunction with my acupuncture person here and also giving us various resources. All of the supplements I use are out of pocket expenses and aren’t cheap!

acupuncture once (sometimes twice) a week with the fabulous Michelle at Sage Acupuncture

twice a week cooking from Shahnaz who cooks healthy meals and knows a ton about foods and healing

Irma who comes twice a week to clean our home and do the laundry and organize our lives in a way that allows me to not stress

once a week one on one yoga with Upma that is tailored to me specifically for healing and strengthening my immune system

Childcare when I can’t be there with Phin and Char during treatment days or on the rare day I am just not feeling well.

Online mediations with Deepak Chopra and various books on healing, inspiration, and cooking

There will be flights to see other doctors, lodging and expenses that come along with those kinds of trips and I am hoping to do a retreat specifically for people with cancer in Bolinas, CA called the Commonweal Cancer Help Program

http://www.commonweal.org/program/commonweal-cancer-help-program/

ALL of this is possible because so many of you were able to give. Please know that we are grateful and very humbled by your generosity.

I will leave you with a photo of something I came across on our hike this past weekend while camping at Inks Lake.

Time to read in bed,

Nite, nite, xoxo Hilary

Hilary had chemo yesterday, a Chemo Day 1 so both the cisplatin and gemcitabine (Gemzar). Jennifer Campbell, who led this week’s cheer, sat with her and shared the many “selflies” and Hilary inspired images. Thank you to all who participated. I was able to view them all and so fun to see what folks submitted!

Chemo Day 2 is April 4th and Clayton Maebius is our fearless leader. Next week’s theme is Pay it Forward. Please share with Clayton, who in turn will share with Hilary, your version of Pay it Forward in honor of Hilary. This can be something in the past or future, have fun with it and most importantly share things that mean something to you.

Please send your stories to Clayton by Wednesday evening, April 2nd. 

Thank you! xo becca

Hilary has chemo in a week, Friday, March 28th and Jennifer Campbell has graciously volunteered to head up the cheer. Below is a message from Jennifer on the next theme and her deadline Sunday, March 23rd to get info. to her. Please feel free to pass this along to anyone who you think wants to participate.

A PICTURE IS WORTH 1000 WORDS.

This week’s chemo cheer will be a collection of images that YOU, Hilary’s biggest fans, think will put a smile on Hilary’s face!  “Selfies” welcome.  Nothing makes us smile more than the sight of those we love and hold dear to our hearts…so please snap a picture of yourselves and send those in without delay. Don’t go get all dolled up…just snap a shot of your smiling faces (silly faces welcome) and send it in.  Won’t it be fun for her to look through the pictures and literally SEE the faces of all of us cheering her on both near and far!?! 

After you send in the picture of YOU (& those around you cheering her on!)…feel free to text any other images that you think would bring a smile to Hilary’s face.  Examples include a picture of the sign of a restaurant you know she loves, or maybe a favorite beverage or food she enjoys, perhaps a photo of a book you know she likes…or a picture of her kids…or a pair of ice skates…you get the idea.  You may include a short line of text if necessary to be included on the photo…but images only are fine as well. 

For those that like the short version…

1. Get out your smart phone.
2. Take a picture of yourself smiling.
3. Text it to xxxxxxxx

Thanks for sending a little cheer to our dear friend Hilary!

Jennifer

This is from Becca (Hilary’s sister) reaching out to all of you want to be part of Hilary’s ongoing “Chemo Cheer.”  Clia Tierney came up with the great idea to have “Chemo Cheerleaders” for Hilary each time she goes to chemotherapy. Meredith Lamme, here in Austin, has been heading this up the last few months. THANK YOU Meredith!! We decided to make it simpler we would use the Saltzman Family CareCalendar for future Cheer baskets.

First of all, what is Chemo Cheer? and a Cheer Captain? 

• A basket, bag, box or something to hold the “Cheer”
• A collection of things and or thoughts from friends and family (CHEERLEADERS)
• A theme for each “Cheer”
• A Captain or Team Leader for each “Cheer” to decide the theme, round up the cheerleaders and deliver the basket
• The surprise “Cheer” is dropped off at Texas Oncology the morning of Hilary’s chemo (Texas Oncology – Midtown is located at 901 W. 38th St, Suite #200 – (512) 421-4100)
• All to make Hilary’s spirit soar in the face of chemo

Anyone who wants to be a Cheer Captain (come up with a theme, collect the cheer and bring a basket to chemo for Hilary) please go to the Saltzman Family CareCalendar and sign up. In Red on the CareCalendar it will say (Chemo Cheer Leader) click here. If Green someone has already signed up. Chemo is generally on Friday mornings but sometimes Thursdays and the times vary. The chemo days on the carecalendar may slightly change.  The infusion center has a rule of one visitor with Hilary during chemo. Hilary often has friends visiting from out of town for chemo so you may or may not get to sit with her (if you want and have time). If you are out of town or can’t physically get to TX Oncology to drop off a basket but can drop off or send to my house I am happy to bring to Hilary since I go most mornings with her for the first 45 mins of each chemo day when she sees her doctor/PA.

If you want to be included on a Cheer; if the calendar is already filled up with Cheer Captains.

Once you sign up and know what your theme is, please email me so I can pass along to some family and friends that like to participate in many of the “cheers.”

Thank you all for making this fun and supporting Hilary.

Best – Becca

Hi Everyone,

Just a quick update on our visit to MD Anderson. We just got back to Austin and thank you Becca & Steven, Clayton and Bailey for helping out with our kids. It’s so reassuring to know your children are in good hands when you can’t be there.

I had my scan yesterday and met today with Dr. Javle for the results. I was a wreck and really scared he would say it’s grown more despite the fact that I have had less pain and have been feeling good. Scan days are just plain scary. To our relief, the news was good. They have ruled out pancreatic cancer 100% and now think it’s bile duct although there is not a way to know if this is for sure it’s origin, at least not at this point. There has been 10-20% shrinkage of most of the cancer that resides in the liver and lymph nodes. Dr. Javle wants to keep the same course of treatment for now and basically treat it as a chronic condition. I of course want more – I want to be able to shrink it enough to have surgery on the liver and wherever else we can get to in order to remove the cancer. For now, I will have to be patient.

So the good news is that it’s shrinking. I was able to revel in this fact for a few hours and of course now that I am home and back to reality it is harder to hold on to that joy for some reason. I habitually say –  yes that’s great but…and then go off into something counter-productive. Part of my journey is to stay in the moment, enjoy the highs and not stomp on them with the what ifs. So yippie! We are headed in the right direction – and that truly is a blessing.

Tomorrow I will start round 4 of chemo. I wish all of you a Happy Valentine’s Day! Hug all your peeps, tell them you love them and don’t wait for a holiday to share with the people you care about how much they mean to you.

A friend of mine sent me a blog post of a cancer survivor she knows and in this post I read a mantra that really resonated with me and I say it often.

Thank you God for this day, this hour, this now. All is well, all is well and all will be well.

It’s a reminder for me to live in the now and to know I will be ok. Seemingly simple isn’t it? I know for me it takes a lot of work.

Thank you to all of you near and far for your prayers, your love, your total support of me and my family. I know that this is helping me heal. Please keep it coming, and thank you for being on my team. We rock!

xoxo Hilary

Thank you Carrie McDowell for the sweet armor!

Hi Everyone,

I have had a really wonderful 2 weeks bathing in the after-glow of Molly and Charlotte’s visit. Normalcy is something I have taken for granted in the past and now it’s something I cherish. I long for normalcy and these last two weeks weeks were such a gift as I had a break from the reality of my situation and all the light and love came shining through.

I had an amazing surprise too this past week which added immensely to my joy factor. At around 2:45 in the afternoon this past Thursday my doorbell rang and to my total shock stood two of my high school friends, Brian and Sean. Seriously? As if that wasn’t surprise enough two more friends arrived that night, Neil and Brendan. What?!! I am so truly touched that these for boys, (ok, men) would coordinate their schedules and pull off this surprise just to check in and brighten my world. I hope you guys know how much I loved every minute with you and how amazingly special you made me feel. I still can’t get over that you all came to Austin together but I am so happy that you did. Thank you for loving on me so sweetly, I love you all.

The next two days are going to be nerve wracking as I head to MD Anderson for scans. I won’t lie, my knees are knocking. My scan is at 5:00 pm Central time today so if you are wanting to send out prayers, light, love, good ju-ju then please send it around then as I will need all your positive energy! I will meet with Dr. Javle on Thursday morning to go over the results at 10:30.

On a nostalgic note I was driving in my car yesterday and the song Night Moves by Bob Seger came on. For those of you who know the Stanley family, you know Night Moves is their family anthem. Hearing that song yesterday reminded me of the Christmas dance parties at the Stanley house with Mr. Stanley and Zan dancing together and this song coming on and knowing it had special meaning. It also reminded me of our group of friends, Neil, Brendan, Sean and Brian being part of that group – and how many good times we have had together over the years and how very blessed I am to have such close ties to all these people I love.

I’ll leave you a story about the universe. Before Christmas this past year, my parents, my sister’s family and my family sponsored a family in need through Foundation Communities here in Austin. We were given a family with a single mother and two children ages 19 and early 20’s. The families in need were asked to provide a short list of some of the items they would like to receive as gifts and we dropped them off to Foundation Communities and they wrapped them and delivered them. We had committed to this before my diagnosis. One of the things our assigned family asked for was to help towards an electricity bill, with a balance of $1000. The mother was making monthly payments. Our three families together purchased a few gift cards for the mother and her children that they had requested, then Charles and I decided we wanted to share and pay forward the generosity that we had received through so many of you, and decided to pay off her entire balance directly to the electric company.

I wrote a note to the mother and told her of my diagnosis, of the generosity of those that love me and my family, of all the support I have and that I know things can seem tough but I hoped she would cherish her health, her family and the simple things in life. I told her I wanted to pay forward the kindness that we had experienced through our trials and share that with her by paying off her electricity bill balance. Yesterday I received a thank you note from her which was 2 pages back to front long. She told me she had been struggling with her faith, worrying about her family, feeling she didn’t have enough. She said sometimes she forgets that it just takes asking for help and being able to receive. She wrote that our generosity was a reminder to keep her faith. She thanked my whole family and thanked me for my generous spirit despite going through a difficult time. She told me I am in her thoughts and prayers and then she enclosed a gift to “keep your spirits high” She made me a medicine bag, with hands on the bottom to offer support and keep me protected during this time. Inside the bag is a piece of rose quartz – the stone of love. The note, the gifts, and most of all her spirit was so kind, generous and loving, I had tears streaming down my face as I read her note, To me, this is the Universe at work. The arrival of her heartfelt note, so eloquently written along with her gifts arrives the day before I head to Houston. When I am so shaky this blessing comes along out of the blue. Pretty amazing.

Love, love, love is all around me – hold me dear friends over the next two days, lend me your strength.

xoxo Hilary

Neil, Hilary, Brendan, Sean, Brian

Walking with the boys

“Benny and the Jets”

The gifts

Good Morning!

It’s 4:00am and unfortunately I woke up and can’t fall back asleep. I just went outside to see if I could retrieve our cat Benjie otherwise known as Tootie, as its 29 degrees outside and I thought he may be cold out there. He did not appear so he must have found a cozy, safe spot, he is an animal after all and they are good at those sorts of things.

We humans sometimes aren’t always as good at finding our cozy spots, finding places we feel safe and protected. We tend to put self-care on the back burner, especially those of us raising a family or pursuing a busy career. This past weekend I was reminded of the importance of self-care. Self-care to me is really about feeding your inner desires for comfort, rejuvenation, curiosity and calm. Reading, writing, exchanging information with friends on a deep meaningful  level, baths, meditation, long walks, yoga, any form of exercise, massage, stillness – all of these things are self-care tools for me.

This past weekend my two dear friends Molly Carroll and Charlotte Hardwick came to see me. We met in San Francisco 10 years ago and they are both Godparents to my Charlotte. Talk about positive energy! These girls have it in spades. I am still radiating in the after-glow. House smudging, crystals, potions, massage, walks, 4 hour coffees at Texas French Bread, Runes readings (go look it up if you aren’t familiar), many tears, hugs, and so much laughter. The visit felt like being pulled into an embrace that made all your worries fade away. I got such strength from these two not to mention love. They were my family in San Francisco when none of us had family close by, they are my family still.  

The weekend was a reminder to me that we have the power to do so much for ourselves if we make it priority. You can go towards darkness or seek out the light. Seek being an important notion to me since those who seek are apt to grow in ways that non-seekers will not. It’s the journey we’re on that yields the most useful information and growth. Being curious, being open.

Thank you Mols and Char Char for coming out here for 4 days and leaving your families, work and lives to be with my family. Once again I am awed and humbled really at the love surrounding us both near and far. Charles and I are so very grateful to all of you for holding us in the light and loving us through this. There is no greater gift.

On a brass tacks note, the biopsy did happen a week ago Monday. It went fine. The tissue has gone to Boston for genetic testing and those results take a few weeks. I am “off” chemo this week and head to MD Anderson next week on the 12-13 for scans and a meeting with Dr. Javle. Knowledge is power has been my mantra. Assuming we are on the right track with my treatment, I will start round 4 of chemo on February 14.

I am tolerating the chemo very well so far. I have gained 3 pounds – yippie! I am extremely excited to kick the shit out of this disease and move on to other things in my life. As I have said to my kids and to myself, this is a marathon not a sprint and I must be patient.

I am including some photos from the weekend with Molly and Charlotte as well as a video of me that makes me laugh each time I watch it.

xoxo Hills

http://vimeo.com/86033805 -link to funny video of me- not sure if this will work!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y6Sxv-sUYtM&feature=share – link to awesome music video Charlotte Hardwick sent to me – a way to feel HAPPY! Thanks Char Char! xoxo