Greetings from St. David’s Hospital Main in Austin. Lovely facility, nice people but I am truly being pushed to the edge. I’m not sure what exactly is going on internally but something is not right. I started to look jaundiced yesterday which lead to roughly 6 hours at Westlake ER where a CT scan was done. Admitted to St. David’s last night and tucked into another hospital bed at 1:00am. I can’t tell you what has gone wrong. I can tell you I feel awful. Steady nausea, hard to walk, a very general but overwhelming unwell feeling. No anti nausea meds help, sleep is not easy, being awake is challenging. I am beyond tired, drained or annoyed. I am desperate to feel better.
This morning I will have a drain placed in my abdomen to drain excess fluid from surgery. I will also likely have to have another surgery to correct whatever is causing my bilirubin to spike and making me feel so terrible.
I hope answers and relief will come today. I have been away from the kids for almost a week and they start school this week. I am betting I will be in the hospital overnight again tonight. I will be calling on local friends to help me tomorrow with my kids and snow cone day.
I want to sob and protest and wilt to the floor. I would give anything to feel well. Please thank your body today for giving you health. Illness paints a gray film on every inch of your life even when your trying your hardest to find the light.